정나영

I'm Doing Fine.

2012-01-21T00:16:00.000-08:00

credits: sasaita

Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
But had me believing it was always something that I'd done
And I don't wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say

But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened
And that we were nothing

I'm doing fine.
I finally got a job, at Starbucksㅋ..
I start training next week.

I applied for University.
And slowly in the preparations of my 18th Birthday.
I'm doing fine

without him.
And I'm sure.. You'll be fine too.

What's Up?

2012-01-05T02:09:00.001-08:00

I sit here, on top of my complaints. My rants. My teenage angst.

Define being "stronger"
For a long time, I believed that it meant..
Carrying everyone on your back,
And not seem pitiful like a stray in an alley.

I probably, I am.
Still naive to what it means to have a relationship with someone.
Whether it's friendship, or even "worse", love.
I won't run this time. Convincing myself that I'm looking for change
I'd be stuck on the same page.

It's embarrassing, to be rejected when you ask for help..

Those who are afraid to ask for help, are the ones that are more scared. People who are usually scared, don't say 'I need help', 'thank you', or 'I'm sorry' They're afraid of being rejected or ridiculed. They're afraid of everything.

When someone sees me pitifully, from now on, I'll say
'아사 Asa! One more person cares about me."

I think I've been watching too many dramas.

Hello & Goodbye

2011-12-31T18:02:00.000-08:00

The last post for 2011.
To be honest, this was a shit year.
And 2012 isn't starting off all that grand.
Nevertheless, toast to the New Year.

All rights reserved by bobby stokes
Hello 2012,
Goodbye 2011.

A new layout for starters: view, comment +favourite.

"See everyone next year!"

Liar.

2011-12-30T10:01:00.000-08:00

You've lied so much, that you can't even remember the truth.

You, of all people. Accused me of being a liar?
Everyone (in some sort of aspect), has lied,
Thus (can be considered to be) a liar.

But what right do you (of all people) to call me a liar?

"I just want to try, taking care of my life.
I've been working day and night, to keep your heart satisfied."

".. 미안, 내가 잘못 했어. 나를 생각하는 시간을 줘."

Just because it's you,
doesn't make it forgiveable.

꺼져, 끝.

Keep it Simple

2011-11-13T15:41:00.000-08:00

Let's keep it simple.
Finally! I updated my layout, I can't submit my previous layout because for some reason..., it's not working properly and I'm not too sure why (and I'm too lazy to deal with scripts). And if you're wondering this song it's "청혼 - 노엘" (Propose - Noel) really old song, but ever since Noel's recent comeback I've been listening to them ㅋㅋㅋ

cr: prologuer

"If you turn backwards the word ‘자살’ (Ja-sal / Commit Suicide) , it’s gonna be read as ‘살자’ (Sal-ja / Let’s live) . Even this is really obvious, how about trying to live your life again."
— Lizzy

I'm tired.

New Url!

2011-09-26T11:23:00.000-07:00

http://saewookkang.blogspot.com Changed Url! Please refer to me as Saewoo!

I decided to change my url due to the confusion between me and my older sister (who is now - 감자깡 .. potato chips) and now I am 새우깡... shrimp chips. Uh. Yeah.

credits: yellownoodles ᄏᄏ
So this was a cool story, bro. I'll probably not tell it again.

Bicycle

2011-09-25T19:49:00.000-07:00

I'm 17세. And as lame as this sounds, today I finally learned how to ride a bike.

credits: iamlemontree

To: (My) Teacher,

Although I never properly showed my appreciation of thanks ㅡ wow I sound really professional... Thanks! Thank you, for teaching me how to ride a bike ^^~

From: (Your) Student.

I apologize for the lack of updates! But thank you! For 300+ followers *O*.. I feel so un-satisfying considering the fact that I haven't made any updates ㅠㅠ... but I'm so busy this week!

- Monday: Social Class Debate
- Wednesday: Some test on who knows whut.
- Thursday: Leadership assignments due & some essay on who knows whut.

Hopefully by the next weekend, I can change my layout and submit this one. Or make a layout and submit that one. Cause I like this layout... to be frank. ㅋ

내 친구 아냐.

2011-09-16T17:05:00.000-07:00

"너 변경됨."
내가? 내가 언제? 너는. 너 어때? 너 뭐해?
너 하선두 아냐. 내 친구, 너 나의 오빠 아니에..요.
저기요. 이바요. 내 말 들려요? 내가 보이니? 죄송합니다 근대 당신은 누구지?

노래: Addicted - Steve Hoang. 이미지: via

( I didn't changeㅡ just my feelings for you changed )

"I hate you, you ~~fucking~~ douchebag. ♬I hate you~ And I'm fine living with you. ㅋㅋㅋ
어. 맞지. 난 니가 미워. 알어?"

와우. For so long, I've been saying "난. 널 좋아해" I did, the person who you used to be. The you, that would acknowledge me as a human. But you became another one of them, the "Korean" group. Don't become another Jewoo.
I hope you heard me. No matter how harsh my words were, I'd be glad for you to hear my words. I'm sorry if, they were too harsh.
Is it pathetic? That I still want to lean on you like before...
I slowly watched you change this summer... Maybe it was my fault that I didn't stop you, but you were already changing throughout grade eleven. Then there was that glimpse... Where I thought "you are still you, and I'm still me..." when you said the words, "Are you cold? Do you want me to hug you to keep you warm?" And I just nodded.

But now, I don't even want you to appear in front of my ~~fucking~~ face.
but at a time like this, it's usually you that's there for me...

P.S. even your 'best friend' hates you.

A Little Memory

2011-09-12T22:45:00.001-07:00

SO, to be dead honest with you, I'm currently studying (for social, I LOVE HISTORY AND POLITICS.. I would never do anything government related though). Actually, that's a lie, I'm blogging. But I was studying. I justㅡ remembered to submit my layout and decided to advertise it! I was planning to actually blog something meaningful and MAYBE enlightening to those who read this. But... I have to study. I must not betray studying! Actually, I don't have to study. I'm pretty ahead in my class... ㅠ

via: lafolia

ANYWAYS, I'm in a rush.. so!
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(edited: kind of a rant againㅡ I bottle in things too much)
I think a lot of people have different definitions of the term "help". I mean, everyone has a different perception on what certain terms mean, that's understandable.

Help: to give or provide what is necessary to accomplish a task or satisfy a need; contribute strength or means to; render assistance to; cooperate effectively with; aid; assist.

I want to bold and underline, "COOPERATE EFFECTIVELY" even "ASSIST".
To be honest, I'm a pushover. A selfless, short, tiny, pushover. I hated that about myself. I'm terribly unsure of whether to say 'hate' or 'hated' because I'm kind of still in that working-process of trying to not be such a pushover. I would 'help' a few of my Korean (FOB) friends with English homework and rarely ever, social studies. When they mean help, they mean to do the whole ~~damn~~ thing. I love English, but obviously there's going to be moments where, I'm just weary. And yes, English is probably a lot easier for me compared to them, but in the long runㅡ it's the last year of high school. Whether I do their all their essays and get them an 80%+ in the course work, the diploma (basically university entry exams) are %50 of your FINAL MARK. Even ifㅡ they were to get an 80%+ in the course work, if they fail the diploma, the course work doesn't do much.

What I meant by 'help' wasㅡ to actually take you to learn and understand the subject of matter. And if you simply 'don't care' what's the point in asking? What's the point of taking English 30. DASH ONE.

I'm not tired todayㅡ I actually don't have much to do today...
But I swear to whatever I believe in, I will falcon punch you in the omnivore teeth.
If you become another one of him.

It's amazing whatㅡ getting to know someone really does when you ignore those 'lovely' fantasies. But I don't know whether you changed, or if I was to blind to see it. I don't know whether to be ashamed of my pathetic actions.., but in the end, it's not like he was a bad person. Soㅡ I'll just let it be. After all.. 내 첫사랑. 아직도.

Ah~ I blogged too much today ㅠㅠ...

2/3주년

2011-09-02T23:22:00.000-07:00

First off!
온늘은 유알빈의 생일축하~ 17세 ㅋㅋㅋㅋ (동생)

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니나 동생~ ㅋㅋ we've known each other for three years now, but our journey so far feels so much long than that. 어쨌든.. 진짜 고마워. For making things.. funner(?) and more exciting. Being able to take the risk of trying new things... then falling and getting back up again. 힘들다. 근데 너무 너무 너무 재밌어, 그랬어.. 감사해.

그리고. 선두 바보. We met at the beginning of high school, and now it's the ending of high school.. ㅎ. I thank you for letting me fall for you like I did, 바보 처럼. 아직도, 그냥 고마워ㅡ 나의 친구. 그냥. 친구.

아이쿵 ^^* there's so many things that have changed- but there's still things that stayed the same. 힘내. 모두.

Finally changed my layout and submitted the old!
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Last Year...

2011-09-01T19:15:00.000-07:00

Finally, it's the last year of high school.
I feel as if I changed so much, but to be honestㅡ I didn't do much this summer.

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Iㅡ no longer feel lost. As if all this pressure of growing up dispersed. Which seems impossible considering the fact that "growing up" has no end. (I really wonder where all this confidence came fromㅡ I wouldn't call it strength, because I haven't done much). I haven't moved, I just. Know where to go.

"Shouldn't you have a back-up plan?"

Why do I need one? When this ~~plan~~ dream(?) seems so flawless in the happiness I seek for. It's simple, yes. And I am a little disappointed that I didn't achieve to enter Harvard, Oxford, or some eloquent sounding post secondary in London. It kind of hurts my pride (it saddens me too) that I didn't fulfil these "once-upon-a-time" expectations. But my giddinessㅡ and the excitement of doing something I want to do makes up for it, in an odd dorky-lameish way.
"Every child is born an artist, the problem is to remain one once they grow up." Pablo Picasso
"How I love~ thee arts" ㅋㅋㅋ 정나영

Psh. I feel too cocky, I wonder what will happen to me if I fail. 힘내.

Rant

2011-08-29T18:52:00.000-07:00

This is just a rant.

my blogskin layout

I recently submitted a layout, this one and for some reason, I didn't win SOTD (skin of the day). I'm not trying to sound like a sore loser, but this isn't the first time that this happened.

I submitted this layout "17. SIMPLY - Contributed by: Jung나영 on August 28th, 2011 at 12:52 am" and received 10 favourites on August 28th. Another layout, this one won, only receiving 2 favourites, on August 28th. This usually doesn't happen, blogskins messing up like this, so I really wonder who's actually running blogskins.

I kind of don't want to submit my layouts anymore, not on blogskins at least >__< so hopefully I find another site to submit my layouts.

생일축해, 내 동생.

2011-08-22T00:27:00.000-07:00

Happy 5th Birthday To My Littlest Brother.

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I love you, unconditionally.

P.S. Ugh. Haven't made any new layoutsㅡ being lazy, therefore I'll submit my old layouts!
rate/comment/favourite?

500 days of Summer.

2011-08-17T23:57:00.000-07:00

I was on tumblr (as usual) and I would always see these .gifs or images of the movie, "500 days of Summer". So, I ended up torrenting it, and watching it (alone with a bucket of ice cream). I couldn't help but... notice the symbolism used in that movie, and over analyze them as if I'm preparing for a write up of a five page essay. Sad.

The idea of movies and the protagonist's occupation of creating "innovative" greeting cards portrayed reality being foreseen by ones fantasy.

I wish I could destroy this image that she has of
what I should be, and what she wants me to be.

"When did you get so strong? When you don't even know how to do anything."

It'll be your fault. When was it never my fault?

Finding Love...

2011-08-16T21:32:00.000-07:00

I'm finally back from a roughly three days road trip with my family. Once we were returning home, I realized, only then... That this would be one of my last 'adventures' I would have with them.

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I really wonder, whether I'd regret leaving this place. I'm ~~almost~~ afraid of regretting it.
I'm not good with speaking about my family, so. I think I'll just leave it like this.

But anyways! Finally submitted my "learn to love yourself" layout:
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100+

2011-08-09T01:05:00.000-07:00

Layouts: there's us & simple diary

I'm submitting another layout. I swear to gosh I'm going to end up submitting a layout on blogskins everyday, along with 내 동생, 송니나! Who has come back after her long hibernation (that buck-tooth rabbit). But it's all for the sake of promoting blogskins, since latelyㅡ there hasn't been that many submissions lately. Maybe it's because it's summer break, but still~

우~ 떙큐 thank you for the 100+ followers! I have no idea who you people are, but I grant you people thanks unconditionally. Oh! And also, for the two chronic winnings of my layouts as an SOTD. (lately I've been sounding like an ecstatic geek, I'm not clear on the reasons why, but it's rather amusing, alas! Self-entertainment).

I actually love this (current) layout to death. I'm not sure why, lol. I'll probably constantly change the background musicㅡ for the heck of it. And message me or maybe I should post the song titles- not a big fan of mainstream. Anyways, if you're wondering this song is called "JP - 가지말걸 그랬어 (Feat. 주영)" pretty old song. But I like it ^ ㅂ^

Thus! I am a fairy god-small-mother to my dearly beloved Cinderella (동생)! And I shall fetch her with my 부산-country-pumpkin (선두) that is pulled away in a well-trained steed (준호)! Once we are make our grand arrival she will be dashingly escorted by her Prince 고양이 charming! This flawless moment shall all occur before midnight and throughout dawn.

흐흐. 니나! You're birthday is coming up soon. Don't forget~!
& You never know for sure, whether he forgot too.

고마워.

2011-08-04T12:10:00.000-07:00

My birthday passed by quite some while ago actually. But, because of my English 30-1 diploma I didn't have time to post... + went to Capital Ex! & Heritage Days (sort of), and just got busy and distracted....

But anyways! Thank you to these people +Mel, Erica, Edric (forgot to write cards ㅡ ㅡ)
Thank you Sundoo for helping me clean and keeping me warm o_O.
Thank you Alvin for all the good smelling stuff ㅋㅋㅋㅋ...
Thank you Joseph for making the barbecue! ㅎㅎ
Thank you Micho for MONMON (I named the fish ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ)!
Thank you Umi for helping me with a lot actually...
Thank you Jerome for setting up the tent... lol.
Thank you EJ for buying the drinks :3
Thank you Anne for helping me set up & for Henry Charles the 3rd.
Thank you Trisha for helping me plan all this shitttt.
Thank you Nadine for not passing out drunk.
Thank you Mel for the oyster... ?
Thank you Erica for the drinks as well LOL.
Thank you Edric for keeping everyone awake.. (?).

In conclusion! Thanks :D
It was a memorable and not so horrid experience~ ^ㅠ^

- 정나영 JungNaYeong.

Introvert.

2011-07-28T23:16:00.000-07:00

I can never feel anything anymore.

in·tro·vert - noun /ˈintrəˌvərt/
1. A shy, reticent, and typically self-centered person
2. A person predominantly concerned with their own thoughts and feelings rather than with external things

I haven't posted for so ~~damn~~ long.
But it never feels like I have anything to say.
At least, anything worth listening to.

I just felt like posting cause I liked this quote awhile ago.
And the fact that tomorrow (well today) is my birthday party.
I felt like I should blog/post.
I should say something. Comment about something. Anything.

But, what is there left for me to say?

겁쟁이

2011-06-28T11:11:00.000-07:00

After so long...

Comment ► Rate ► Download

Have a nice summer! lol, I have nothing more to say.

And You, 앤드류

2011-05-23T16:25:00.000-07:00

The Fool.

via: weheartit

I came back a day earlier than expected. I didn't come up with some "amazing" update. Just simple, like so. I'm not sure when I'll get back to blog designing either. I don't really feel like it lately.

"Starting tomorrow, everything will go back to 'normal'."

"It's going to be, Nara, Micho and Umi." I never thought you'd be alone. I didn't think I walked very far. I didn't think I walked far enough. I couldn't see you anymore, you weren't in my sight anymore, but I could still hear you. I met people along the way, I was happy, but I was never the happiest.

I met a DJ, DJ Fender. He's pretty cool, weird, but pretty cool. I met some Japanese Rock band, "The Fool". I've never heard of them, but their room was right across the hall from ours. They invited us over to drink Sake... I wasn't allowed to go. I met this one guy, Andrew, he was Chinese. And those two things, were the only things I know about him... But he was cute and nice; I want to meet him again someday.

And I bottle up all these smiles. All these tears. So that I didn't have to look back.
"We'll be your real brothers. Like a real family, we'll feed you, spoil you, take care of you. Let me meet them, so I can feed them, spoil them, take care of them. So you don't have to, on your own."

Black Day.

2011-04-14T21:40:00.000-07:00

짜장면! Happy Black Day!

credits: tg8204

"눈온다..."

친애하는 당신,
응, 여기도.. 눈온다.
내가 너무 너무 너무 추위 ㅠㅠ 눈 미워~
너.. 눈 좋아? ㅎㅎㅎ 당신이 너무 춥지 않니?

~~당신은 무서운거야.~~ 아니. 나 무서워. 미안해. I guess in the end, ~~everything~~ a lot did change. I can no longer go back to just, "being normal" with you. After not seeing you for a month, after two weeks of not speaking to each other...
혹시.. 너 나를 미워하라?...물론 당신이 할. 내가.. 나쁜 여자. 나쁜놈. 병신. 너 날 싫어요.

그래서.. 잘가.요.

my black bean noodle day
So! I ended up spending my black day with a couple of my friends ^ㅠ^ and I'm glad everyone(?) had fun ㅎㅎㅎㅎ. The bill ended up with $120 + a couple more bucks cause of bubble tea ㅋㅋ.. but it was delicious! Nevertheless! Had 2 bowls of 짜장면, had 2 dishes of 불고기 (spicy and regular ㅋ), had some 잡재... and I don't even remember anymore 헐...

이 사랑 노래가 싫어

2011-04-13T20:15:00.000-07:00

내가 공부를 다하고. ㅠㅠ 아이구~ 공부가 싫어.

오늘따라 달이슬퍼보여...
나도 슬픈데...

"하이. 헤이. 잘 지내...시죠? 잘 먹고 있니?"
널 보고싶다 -쿨럭...-

힘들다, 너무 힘들어.
하지만 당신은 괜찮아...

그러므로, 오늘은 난 미소 있어.

I've Always Been Okay | 오래만에

2011-04-09T18:48:00.000-07:00

Layout: rate/comment/download ^^

credits: 엔양
Brian - 눈물의 구성요소

After a very long time (a bit over a month), I finally decided to make a new layout for myself and submit my old one. I decided, to no longer skip my classes and drag school around. I've been spending a lot of time lately with my family. It's pretty interesting actually. One told me a lot about my childhood, what I did when I was little, my actions, the habits that haven't changed. The other told me about the future, what I should do, what I can do, where to go. And I listen to them, since they have all the right to tell me these things anyway. Both criticized the way I am now. The fact that I'm at the edge of the cliffㅡ where I can decide to fall off or turn around.

They both told me that they'll always be here or there. That they'll be around.

And I believe them.

I grew up with them, and I wouldn't mind to keep growing up with them. I'm starting to fall into this "unconditional" love ㅡ towards a my family.

Congratulations on my grandparent's 50th wedding anniversary and R.I.P. my two dead goldfish ; A; 물고기...

기분풀어요~ 기분좋게

스크랩/Scrap.

2011-03-20T21:19:00.000-07:00

Updates: Taro Bubble Tea | New tank top? | New iPhone 4 | I shall make paper stars!
Mr. Smile - 노엘

판타지/Fantasy.
사랑담아 웃음담아 오겠니 여전히 그자리에
너만을 기다리고 있는데 그날 그때 너의 이쁜
모습만 그리워하며 초록의 봄을 한아름 안고
환한 미소 지으며 금방이라도 안길듯이
너가 자꾸 보이는데 무작정 기다리다보면 살포시
내 곁에 와주겠니 봄향기 가득 품어내며
천진스런 아이마냥 티없이 고운 마음 한자락에 장미빛
순정담아 여전히 뽐내는 자신감 넘치는 모습 보이며
언제나 잘난척 해도 밉지않을 만큼 그런 이쁜모습으로
초록의향연 틈사이로 오겠니 그날이면 그 모든 속삭임이
너를 위한 노래가 되어 한바탕 호탕한 웃음위로 너울너울
날아 사랑의 두마음이 마주보며 마냥 즐거워 하겠지 아마도
그럴꺼야..

If you want, I'll take you with me.
You're right, I'm not afraid.
To grow up and have responsibilities.
I'm pretty excited to get out of school, actually. To graduate. To live on my own. And study something that will actually seem useful for my future.
I'm just scared, to go alone. I guess I have been this whole time.
I can always climb my way upㅡ but I'm too scared to ever go down unless I know there's someone there to catch me.
They say, the person you like, says a lot about you. To be honest, I'm starting to think that... I fell for his actions. What he did. Like, the day I got lost and he spent hours looking for me in the cold winter night.

"His actions never matched his words"

She was right. It didn't. But I didn't like his words, I only liked his actions. I ignored his words, because I didn't like them. They weren't pretty. But, I fell in love with this fantasy. And grew out of reality. I almost regret it, I'm supposed to be a realist. Yet I let myself fall into the gap that she made. But I'll admit. Young love is sweet. I'm glad that I got my heart racing, I got my valentine on February, I got my teenage dream. These past two years... of my playful chase, our flirting, and stupidity, it's enough sweetness for me. If I take another bite, I'll probably end up with another cavity ㅡㅁㅡ;
I can't help, but want to be my own Superhero.

Happy Spring Break! Even to Mr. Smile ^ㅠ^*

"Nothing In-Between"

2011-03-10T21:21:00.000-08:00

What a week.

Noodles. Noodles. Corn & Egg Soup. Selca.

It was a pretty happy week.
Strangely enough. I only went out twice this week, once to the big~~-ass~~ mall and one buying bubble tea while eating soup. I don't really like going out anymore. Maybe it's the bitter cold winter that gives me shivers telling me to just stay home. But nah, I've been living in this freezing country for almost 10 years now ㅡ I think, I'm pretty use to this kind of "winter".

I like it. Sitting at home with a glass of warm hot chocolate, sitting smacked right in front of my computer watching dramas/sitcom/or variety shows. Or just, sitting and drawing whatever comes to mind. My family's ~~always~~ often home now. ~~It doesn't feel lonely anymore.~~ But I do, like being alone. I'm used to it all over again.

I feel almost insane. As if, I really should see a psychiatrist. I'm so convinced that I should go see one.
And I wonder tooㅡ if anyone still reads this 'piece of junk', including you. Especially you.

I want you to worry,
When I don't call you back.

I can't do it. No matter what.
I can't become close to someone. I can't run up to them and give them a humongous hug.

I just can't.

Whether it's You. Him. Them.
I can'tㅡ somehow they'll all just die in my hands.
Then I wonder, if it's me that's the killer. The murderer. Then I run.

It's five o'clock in the morning. And for some reason, I can't fall asleep (I partly blame daylight savings). It's as if I'm constantly thinking, but I don't seem to be going anywhere far. I've decided to start some mini random drawing series. No storyline, so I don't want to call it a "manga" or a "one-shot"...

I should really get a decent camera.

"Nothing In-Between"

That's what I shall call it.

P.S. Congratulations.

Patience is Virtue

2011-03-07T23:08:00.000-08:00

To be honest with you! I hate it when people take pictures like this. When they're covering their face with their phone/camera. But! the reason why I took a picture like this, is cause....ㅡ my nails matched my phone.

(Yes, that is the first generation Lollipop phone ㅋ;)
I don't own a camera ahaha, so taking a picture... using my camera phone... to take a picture of my phone... kind of odd. So, I ended up taking it like this! But anyways~ on with the post...

I have the confidence toㅡ
But I don't have the patience.

Why is it that, everyone seems so certain but me?
내가 .. 찐자 바보야? ㅜㅜ.. 아이구...

"뭔가를 사랑할 수 있는 유일한 길은 그것을 잃을 수도 있다는 사실을 깨닫는 데 있다." -아논
"The only way to love anything is to realize it might be lost." -Anon

Another Layout?

2011-03-04T15:21:00.000-08:00

Ahaha, due to the long weekend I have nothing to do but make layouts! :D I think I'm in deep shit since my mom kind of found out what happened last weekend, (with the drinking) (ㅡ ㅡ)ㅗ..

RATE/COMMENT/FAV, tehe

I don't know if it's a good thing that my mom has found out about this site. Sigh. In a way, it's good, cause I honestly, hate opening up to people. I hate telling people things unless they were there. I guess ㅡ you can say I bottle it up inside, but I'm still human. I break, I crack. And just spill everything out (especially when tired). I feel like some kind of product and I'm reading aloud my manual instructions.. thing. ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ.... 이상해?

심심해

2011-02-23T17:39:00.000-08:00

This was posted all over Naver/Daum so I decided to post it ㅋㅋㅋ
Honestly, I'm Atheist ㅎ..

Professor: You are a Christian, aren't you, son?
교수: 자네는 크리스찬이지?

Student : Yes, sir.
학생: 네, 교수님.

Prof: So you believe in God?
교수: 그래, 자네는 신을 믿는가?

Student : Absolutely, sir.
학생: 물론입니다, 교수님.

Prof: Is God good?
교수: 신은 선한가?

Student : Sure.
학생: 그럼요.

Prof: Is God all-powerful?
교수: 신은 전능한가?

Student : Yes.
학생: 네.

Prof: My brother died of cancer even though he prayed to God to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But God didn't. How is this God good then? Hmm?
교수: 내 동생은 신께 고쳐달라고 기도했지만 암으로 죽었네. 대개의 사람들은 누군가 아플때 도와주려 하지. 하지만 신은 그러지 않았네. 이런데도 신이 선한가? 음?

(Student is silent.)
(학생은 침묵한다.)

Prof: You can't answer, can you? Let's start again, young fella. Is God good?
교수: 대답을 못하는군. 그럼 다시 묻지, 젊은이. 신은 선한가?

Student :Yes.
학생: 네.

Prof: Is Satan good?
교수: 그럼 사탄은 선한가?

Student : No.
학생: 아닙니다.

Prof: Where does Satan come from?
교수: 사탄은 어디서 태어났지?

Student : From...God...
학생: ... 하나님에게서 ... 부터지요..

(하나님은 루시퍼라는 천사를 만드셨다, 후에 타락하여 사탄이 된...)

Prof: That's right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?
교수: 그렇다네. 그러면 말해보게, 세상에 악이 있는가?

Student : Yes.
학생: 네.

Prof: Evil is everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything. Correct?
교수: 악은 어디에나 있지, 그렇지 아니한가? 그리고 신은 모든것을 만들었지. 맞는가?

Student : Yes.
학생: 네.

Prof: So who created evil?
교수: 그렇다면 악은 누가 만들었는가?

(Student does not answer.)
(학생은 대답하지 않는다.)

Prof: Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don't they?
교수: 세상에는 아픔, 부도덕, 추함 등의 추악한 것들이 존재하지, 그렇지?

Student :Yes, sir.
학생: 그렇습니다, 교수님.

Prof: So, who created them?
교수: 그렇다면 누가 그것들을 만들었나?

(Student has no answer.)
(학생은 대답하지 않는다.)

Prof: Science says you have 5 senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son...Have you ever seen God?
교수: 과학은 사람이 세상은 인지하는데 5가지 감각을 사용한다고 하지. 그렇다면 대답해보게 젊은이, 신을 본적이 있는가?

Student : No, sir.
학생: 못봤습니다, 교수님.

Prof: Tell us if you have ever heard your God?
교수: 그렇다면 신의 목소리를 들어본적 있는가?

Student : No , sir.
학생: 아니오, 교수님.

Prof: Have you ever felt your God, tasted your God, smelt your God? Have you ever had any sensory perception of God for that matter?
교수: 그렇다면 신을 느끼거나, 맛보거나, 냄새맡은 적도 없는가? 신을 어떠한 감각으로도 인지한 적이 있는가?

Student : No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.
학생: 아니오, 없습니다. 교수님.

Prof: Yet you still believe in Him?
교수: 그런데도 아직 신을 믿나?

Student : Yes.
학생: 네.

Prof: According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your GOD doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?
교수: 과학은 경험적이고 실증적인 논증으로 신이 없다고 말하네. 자네는 이것을 어떻게 생각하는가?

Student : Nothing. I only have my faith.
학생: 저는 단지 믿음이 있을 뿐입니다.

Prof: Yes. Faith. And that is the problem science has.
교수: 그래, 믿음. 그게 과학이 가지지 못한것이지.

Student : Professor, is there such a thing as heat?
학생: 교수님, 세상에 열이란 것이 있습니까?

Prof: Yes.
교수: 물론이지.

Student : And is there such a thing as cold?
학생: 그러면 차가움이란 것도 있겠지요?

Prof: Yes.
교수: 그렇다네.

Student : No sir. There isn't.
학생: 아닙니다 교수님. 그런것은 없지요.

(The lecture theatre becomes very quiet with this turn of events.)
(강의실은 이 반전에 순간 적막이 흘렀다)

Student : Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat. But we don't have anything called cold. We can hit 458 degrees below zero which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.
학생: 교수님, 많은 열, 더 많은 열, 초열, 백열, 아니면 아주 적은 열이나 열의 부재는 있을수 있습니다. 하지만 차가움이란 것은 없지요. 영하 273도의 열의 부재 상태로 만들수는 있지만 그 이하로 만들 수는 없지요. 차가움이란 것이 없기 때문입니다. 차가움이란 단어는 단지 열의 부재를 나타낼 뿐이지 그것을 계량할 수는 없지요. 열은 에너지이지만, 차가움은 열의 반대가 아닙니다 교수님. 그저 열의 부재일 뿐이지요.

(There is pin-drop silence in the lecture theatre.)
(강의실은 쥐죽은듯 고요했다.)

Student : What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?
학생: 그렇다면 어둠은 어떻습니까, 교수님? 어둠이란 것이 존재하나요?

Prof: Yes. What is night if there isn't darkness?
교수: 그렇지. 어둠이 없다면 밤이 도대체 왜 오는가?

Student : You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light....But if you have no light constantly, you have nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it? In reality, darkness isn't. If it were you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?
학생: 그렇지 않습니다, 교수님. 어둠 역시 무엇인가 부재하기 때문에 생기지요. 아주 적은 빛, 보통 빛, 밝은 빛, 눈부신 빛이 존재할 수는 있습니다. 하지만 지속적으로 아무 빛도 존재하지 않으면 우리는 어둠이라 부르는 겁니다. 그렇지 않습니까? 실제로 어둠이란 것은 없지요. 만약 있다면 어둠을 더 어둡게 만들수 있겠지요, 그렇수 있나요?

Prof: So what is the point you are making, young man?
교수: 그래, 요점이 뭔가, 젊은이?

Student : Sir, my point is your philosophical premise is flawed.
학생: 교수님, 제 요점은 교수님이 잘못된 전제를 내리시고 있다는 겁니다.

Prof: Flawed? Can you explain how?
교수: 잘못되었다고? 설명해 줄 수 있겠나?

Student : Sir, you are working on the premise of duality. You argue there is life and then there is death, a good God and a bad God. You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure.

학생: 교수님, 교수님은 이분법적인 오류를 범하고 계십니다. 생명이 있으면 죽음이 있고, 선한 신이 있으면 악한 신이 있다는 논지이지요. 교수님은 하니님을 유한한, 우리가 측정 가능한 분이라 보고 계십니다.

Sir, science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life: just the absence of it. Now tell me, Professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?
교수님, 과학은 우리가 생각할 수 있다는 점 조차 설명을 못합니다. 전기와 자기를 말하지만, 볼수는 없지요. 완벽히 이해할 수 없는건 물론이구요. 죽음을 생명의 반대로 보는건 죽음이란 것이 실재로 존재하지 않는다는 것에 무지해서 그런겁니다. 죽음은 생명의 반대가 아니라 당지 생명의 부재일 뿐이지요. 교수님은 사람이 원숭이에서 진화했다고 가르치십니까?

Prof: If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, yes, of course, I do.
교수: 자연 진화 과정을 말하는거라면 그렇다네.

Student : Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?
학생: 그렇다면, 진화의 과정을 눈으로 목격한 적이 있습니까, 교수님?

(The Professor shakes his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument is going.)
(교수는 논리가 성립되어감을 보고 미소지으며 고개를 저었다.)

Student : Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavour, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a scientist but a preacher?
학생: 아무도 진화가 진행되는 과정을 못격하지 못했을 뿐 아니라 그 과정을 증명하지도 못했으니 교수님은 개인의 의견을 가르치시는 거겠군요, 교수님. 마치 과학자가 아닌 연설가 처럼요.

(The class is in uproar.)
(강의실이 웅성이기 시작했다.)

Student : Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor's brain?
학생: 이 강의실에 교수님의 뇌를 본 사람이 있나요?

(The class breaks out into laughter.)
(강의실 여기저기서 웃음이 터져 나왔다.)

Student : Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor's brain, felt it, touched or smelt it?.....No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures, sir? (The room is silent. The professor stares at the student, his face unfathomable.)
학생: 여기에 교수님의 뇌를 듣거나, 느끼거나, 맛보거나, 냄새맡은 적이 있는분 계십니까? ... 아무도 그런적이 없는것 같군요. 그러면 과학은 경험적이고 실증적인 논증으로 교수님의 뇌가 없다고 말하는군요. 그렇다면 교수님의 강의를 어떻게 신뢰할 수 있습니까?

(강의실은 고요했다. 교수는 심오한 표정으로 학생을 응시했다.)

Prof: I guess you'll have to take them on faith, son.
교수: 사실을 믿는 수 밖에 없겠군, 젊은이.

Student : That is it sir.. The link between man & God is FAITH. That is all that keeps things moving & alive.

학생: 바로 그겁니다, 교수님. 하나님과 인간의 관계는 "믿음" 입니다. 그게 바로 모든것을 움직이고 생명있게 만드는 것이지요.

Super Junior

2011-02-22T18:20:00.000-08:00

Super Junior M - 太完美 (Too Perfect)

To be honest, I don't know Chinese ㅎㅎㅎ. But I've always listened to Super Junior M anyways because I was in love with Hankyung at one point >_< 우유빛깔! 김희철! 사랑해요 김희철!

I didn't even know that Super Junior M was releasing a new mini album ㅠㅠ.. sigh. I miss the days where I was completely absorbed into the Super Junior scene but that was quite some time ago when Super Junior was always 13. I mean, yeah, sure, they're still 13 for those super dedicated ELF fans, but it doesn't feel the same ㅜㅜ..

I was kind of shocked seeing Eunhyuk 은혁 and Sungmin 성민 in Super Junior M ㅋㅋㅋㅋ, gosh I miss Hankyung 휴휴.. But anyways, yeah, so I was completely dedicated to Super Junior at one point as a matter of fact. To the point where I ran a Super Junior fansite and translated a bunch of random... things(?) that were Super Junior related. I helped in subbing... and I posted images of them... Went around sj-market (I'm not even sure if that's still running lol) but nowwww, I'm just. I'm not sure, ㅋㅋ.. I just listen to whatever now.

Anyways! I just felt like posting about 슈퍼주니어.

슈퍼주니어 화이팅! 파이팅!

The Procrastinator.

2011-02-21T23:44:00.000-08:00

After writing five pages of notes for Chemistry, I've decided to procrastinate.

I decided to play around with some photoshop actions, and my failed attempt to do selcas

Because of my extremely long bangs/fringe I look very angry in this picture... ㅡ ㅡ.. but then again, studying for Chemistry.. I wouldn't be the happiest trooper under this sky.
*Note: my camera sucks (haha) Actually, I used my phone. Bloo LG Lollipop (goddamn, this version only has a 2 megapixal camera). I love circle scarves, I have no idea why... they're so warm~

Lately! I actually listen to English music, which is rare for me. Currently in love with Bruno Mars! & I love 정성하 (Sungha Jung) even more for doing a guitar cover for Grenade and Just The Way You Are (both from Bruno Mars). Sigh, how I wish I could go back to guitar... Maybe I'll get his tabs/music notes from his cafe and start again (once I fix the E string).

Well, that was a veryㅡ pointless, post. SO I shall wrap it up with a "HOPE EVERYONE HAD AN AMAZING FAMILY DAY" Ahem.

P.S.
ㄴㅓㄹ ㅂㅗㄱㅗㅅㅣㅍㄷㅏ

君に届け

2011-02-15T17:04:00.000-08:00

Finally! I submitted my previous layout.

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Yes! New song from 8Eight's Lee Hyun- 내꺼중에 최고

미안, 내가 정말 너를 위해 이쁘지 아니야.
근데, 난 이렇게... 너 이렇게.
따라서, 난 너를 도달 못할거.

바이바이

Happy Valentine's Day.

2011-02-14T22:11:00.001-08:00

"Happy Valentine's Day!"
"It's not that happy..."
"Stop making life seem so miserable ㅡ ㅡ.."

김밥! (Kimbap) via.

Even after 3 weeks of not seeing each other. Even after 2 weeks of not speaking a word to each other. And yet. We fought just like any other day. We argued till our day spent ended. And we laughed as if there was no tomorrow.
The first half of my Valentine's day was spent out of the city (about an hour away) to drop off a box of chocolates to Sundoo. It was... kind of awkward to spend a Valentine's day with him. As we passed by couples holding hand in hand, and pink hearts everywhere we went. It was awkward. Considering the fact that we're not an actual couple ㅡ in my opinion. It got even more awkward after seeing his older brother pass by us giving us a smirk.
We talked, about our friends. How they are. What they were up to. Him, constantly trying to pursue to me to move into his area and leave the city.

"Just come here, you'd get to spend every single day with me! Doing nothing!"
"Mhmm."

And his many so-called "attempts" to quit smoking. We started playing around. Seeing who would flinch and who wouldn't, I lost. Him mocking my flat chest..., playing around with each others phone..., for some reason got on the topic of children, whether we like them or not. To be honest, I lost track of what we even talked about. It already seems so long ago that I've last seen him..

The second half was spent with 언니! (older sister). Went to Korean restaurant, ate some 김치 of course, 김밥 and 볼고기! 맜있어... 정말. Weird, how Nara 언니 always waits for me whenever I'm with him.

Is this a coincidence? Or ㅡ

Happy Valentine's Day! Whether you spent it single (like me) or with a special someone.

Soar.

2011-02-01T16:15:00.000-08:00

I'm sorry, but I can't get myself to make someone suddenly have an importance in my life.

Nine - JYJ

That imaginary world I once lived in; Disappeared, destroyed, dead, died.
Like this, I forgot my childhood.

I lied. At least, I think I lied. I don't remember watching Doremon, or some other show with talking animals. I have no memory of ever watching them. The only things I can truly remember were all from the recorded history found in boxes down in my basement. Or the photo albums on the top bookshelf. On my own, I wouldn't know anything about my past.

~~Once a year, I'll~~ I'd go deep down in the basement; going through my past, the handwritten promises that I made with myself, the imagination that ran across a blank piece of paper, and the letters I sent to an imaginary friend, that I never really expected a response from. And yet, I sat there waiting for an enclosed envelope with my name printed in the center. A letter; perhaps from sister that's been taking care of me all this time. Or a message in a bottle written by the waves of the sea. Maybe even a letter from a loyal dog with thumbs.

I wasn't lonely. It didn't feel lonely. As I waited, I imagined. A sister holding my hand tightly, a sea that I could drown myself in, and a pet dog that would wait for my return after going on some grand adventure in the forest. Like a fairytale, having unrealistic characters.

That sister, will one day let go. That sea, will one day dry up. And that dog, will one day go on his own grand adventure. Like a folktale, that knows the difference between dreams and reality.

In this dream, I am Margaret. The one that wished away his existence, and in this dream, it came true.
In this reality, I am her. The one that wished for his existence, and in this reality, he's disappearing.

It's time to try. ~~No.~~
Always try.

Because even if you fail, no one's counting your mistakes.
It's time to hold on tight. To make the sky rain. And to ㅡ wait for the dog's return.
While I'm here, I'll work hard, study, fighting! 아자아자.

Last Song

2011-01-30T01:36:00.000-08:00

For some reason, the music on my page doesn't seem to be working (not for me at least), and that makes me very sad. But since it's currently 2:30 in the morning, I'd rather not spend it making a playlist. I think I'll do that tomorrow.

After making 3 layouts.. The first one getting taken away by 나라 and since she's my 언니... rawr. The second one got dibs by Umi. And finally! This was the third one ^ㅠ^. But! Doggggggy~ LOL. I'll make you a layout too :D (if you want ㅡ but I'm submitting it once you're done using it). I'll probably complete those layouts in order they were requested: 나라, Umi, and possibly 미초.

But anyways! I finally submitted my previous layout!

credits: sechuna

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I'll stop with the layout talking LOL. However, I should really go back to singing >__>; we decided to change songs (again) to something (supposedly easier) This Time - Wonder Girls. I have to admit this is a really old song :| I used to really like this song, like Iunno three years ago? I forgot majority of the lyrics by now. Sigh.

Whatta Loser.

2011-01-24T00:29:00.000-08:00

Alas! While studying, I managed to come up with a new layout ^^;

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Only ONE test down and THREE more to go ㅠㅠ.. Math 30, Physics 20, and Japanese 20. Sigh. I should probably finish up studying for math (after I finish posting).

"Justㅡ stay."
"No, I don't want to."
"Well, I'm going to go to 한국."
"Forever?"
"Should I go forever?"
"If you want to."
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#$%#$. ㅡ ㅡ.. why would I stay then? 미친 놈.
A group of my friends, and I (lol) have decided to enter MBC/Cube's/SM's some company in Korea, TO SING. And possibly dance since our audition is probably going to later than the deadline. For now, our final song is 그남자 sung by 현빈 from the Secret Garden OST. :)

AJAJA Figthing!

My Imaginary World.

2011-01-22T00:01:00.000-08:00

In my imaginary world, were secrets
Lived a boy that loved me so. A mom and a dad to care. A sister that I was never apart.

In my imaginary world, were lies

He was by my side. They were always here. And she never thought of letting me go.

credits: 水玉子

My imaginary world, that can no longer be seen,
Lies deep within the sea and in-between the skies..

Always Smile.

2011-01-18T19:07:00.000-08:00

"Always Smile" he said.
"I will" she said.

via: weheartit

Because my posts were kind of messed up I decided to combine it, like so. Well, today, I ran around the snow that went up pass my knees. It was cold ㅡ no duh, but yet, I truly felt free that day. Just running. And knowing the person that I am, I hate running. Losing breathe, the heavy feeling in your chest and the constant pounding of your unsteady heart. Nevertheless, some people will disagree. Others like, or even love the thrill, that thrill. The excitement that comes from a "good run".

Even when I was breathing heavily, I could still hear the pounding of my heart. In a constant beat, that constant beat. At that moment, I wanted to scream. Louder than my heavy breathes, louder than the beats of my heart. To prove to myself that I'm still alive. Then I realized, the only proof I ever will need, is the breathes from my mouth and the beat of my heart. That's how I know, that I'm alive.

I don't need perfection, to be the person I want to be.

I want to play again. Just like today. To laugh without responsibilities, to smile without the slightest worries.

"Be kind; for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle"
- Aristole

I can't help but wonder,
What would've happened if this little girl,
didn't grow up.